Does that make me, like, extra gay? o_O

My first post on Livejournal in many months. Not much has been happening in my life. Still struggling to find work, been getting out more into the clubbing scene. Went to Connections for the first time a couple weekends ago. Sleazy club is SLEAZY. Ummmm...learning how to drive manual. Go me. And currently getting to know a guy that I hope to be my boyfriend someday. Sexy Asian is sexy. (He's a non-fur, knows nothing of the fandom, so he won't be meeting ANY of you :P)

Basically, my mum saw pics on my computer months ago...she hasn't said anything to me about it...I know she'd seen the pics because she was like "Why do you have so much shit in your received files?" And I silently said to myself "....FUCK..."

Anyway, my sister picked me up yesterday to take me around her place to mow the lawn for a 6pack of booze, was asking me questions about the people I hang out with that I met online, telling me to be careful, as I'd gone up to Gotica's on Saturday, etc...then she's like "I'm going to ask you one more thing..." then she goes on to say that mum had seen pics on my computer blah blah blah, mum's worried, yadda yadda yadda, mum is under the impression that it's people I talk to online that make me THINK that I'm gay. Anyway, my sister is very supportive. ^_^

Now I just gotta bring it up with my mum :/

And there's no way I'm telling my brother...he'd probably deck me, forbid me to come near his kids again...and I can't have that...I love my niece and nephews...

And are very easy to get to from Rockingham via public transport (and it's important that it's not a 6am start, so I don't have to get up at like, 3:30 in the morning just to get to work on time) could you please let me know? Seek and Jobsearch are freakin' useless.

It started off just under my ribs on the right-hand side...at some stage it felt like I'd been shot, and I am NOT exaggerating...now the pain has spread down and across my gut...going to the doctor's first thing in the morning. Wish me luck that it's not too serious...you know, life-threatening...if it is, and I don't have enough time to say it, I love you all.

I am SO not gonna hear the end of this if it's nothing...lol...

God. Loooool

When I get it, it'll be a pair of black jeans, black t-shirt, black steel toed boots and a long black leather coat (like the one Ronyo was wearing at the zoo on Saturday). :D

Yeah...I'm feeling pretty bad about myself at the moment, wondering if I'm the reason it's so hard for me to find someone...I...yeah, I can't think of anything else to say. :(

UPDATE: I'm feeling a little better, just mowed the lawn, that got the blood pumpin' and the sweat flowin', so I'm feeling somewhat good. Next I shall weed the front garden, vaccum the house, wash and dry the dishes and finally, do my washing. Wish me luck.